Chad's thoughts

You know, there are times when I just wonder about things. Like when someone makes a post on Facebook about liking when they get their hair pulled. I mean, if you want people to do that sort of thing, that's fine, I guess, but maybe don’t ask for it on any level because you might not like your hair being pulled by some people. That's a lot like asking, “What are you going to do, arrest me?” It does the same thing, which is to invite people to find ways to have you arrested and not care about what such actions do to you. Take me, for instance, if I get arrested, my mother gets placed in a nursing home, wondering what the hell happened to me because no one will tell her anything. Now that is the best-case scenario. The worst-case scenario would be that she ends up dying because no one has even checked on her, and the Housing Authority just treats her like trash that needs to be dealt with.

Now, let’s say I do get arrested. Again, best-case scenario, I make it 24 hours before some inmate gets pissed at me and kills me in some form. Again, worst-case scenario, I get killed within 1 hour for the same reason. Either way, I’ll die for the simple fact that I would not bow down to any inmate. Maybe that’s why most women want men to go to jail? Then again, does it really matter? After all, most women have no problem using kids as weapons on some level against men. They don’t even see this as killing the men on an emotional or psychological level. In the end, it is what it is, and all we men can do is just deal with it the best way we can because women don’t care who gets hurt in the end.

I don’t know what it is with the women in today's world. It seems that they have no problem being married to one man while being in a relationship with another one. That’s not including bringing in what some would call side dudes when she has a wild hair up her ass. This makes ALL women look bad to most, if not all, men. What's worse is that the women in today's world have no problem with that either. That's why most men will not deal with women in today's world. After all, the women in today's world want to be seen as equals to men, but in turn, created a world where most men want nothing to do with them. Hell, the women in today's world don’t even have a problem losing their own family. Why? Well, my guess would be that everyone in their family is just slowing them down from finding the man with the most money.

What the women in today's world fail to understand when they do that is that the number of bridges they will have to burn for that goal will be high. They also fail to understand that once those bridges are burned, it’s next to impossible to build them again. Hell, they even fail to understand that even if the bridges are rebuilt, the people they burned will not look at them that same way again. That includes the people who would have protected them at all costs. What’s even worse is if there are kids involved in all of this, they will most likely get hurt in some way. Plus, finding a man who has the most money means the women in today's world will need to be willing to do just about anything for that man, which includes porn if that man demands it. If the women in today's world fail to do that, then they have to start over with their search from nothing, since they most likely have nothing to begin with. Then again, this world is part of the “ME TOO” side of things, so they have that to work with. That means the only way the women in today's world can get back with their family is to tell them that they were either abused or raped, and their family will most likely believe them, no matter if it’s true or not.

In the end, it is what it is and we men just have to deal with it.

You know if you want to see proof that Wetumka, Oklahoma, is falling apart, then just go to the Dairy Queen and see if the notice of their Tax License/Permit being revoked is still on their window. If it is, then that proves my point in a way. I say in a way because the owner of the Dairy Queen is in jail for his questionable actions toward kids while he was a teacher and a coach. This makes me wonder where has the money gone for the taxes of Dairy Queen since it has been running all this time, while the owner has been in jail? To my knowledge, the wife of the owner has been running the Dairy Queen, but I cannot say whether it is true or not. Like I said, though, this is proof that Wetumka, Oklahoma, as a whole will not be here in the next five to ten years. This will just be another ghost town that only exists in the minds of the people who have lived here at one point or another. It also sheds light on a problem that has been around for a while now.

Now my mother used to like it here. It used to be a cool place to live. People used to be nice here. Over time, though, it started to show its true colors. The questionable Government started going after the people for whatever reason. Hell, it even stopped hiding its action once a power-tripping mayor got into power. It was not until enough people started taking action to have the mayor replaced. Some thought that was the end of having a power-tripping mayor, but it seems that we only replaced him with another power-tripping mayor.

In the end, it is what it is, and only time will tell when it will all end. In the next couple of days, my mother and I will be going to Tecumseh Housing Authority and attempt to start the process of getting a unit there, and maybe look around while we are there. After all, it is time to abandon ship when it comes to Wetumka, Oklahoma.

Well, today is my birthday. Most people would be happy on their birthday, but not me. Why? Well, that’s because on this day I buried two people. Once on my 15th birthday and once on my 25th birthday. They both happened at 2 PM. They were both my grandfathers. One died of lung cancer, and one died of throat cancer. This year, it doesn’t hurt as much. Maybe one day it will not hurt at all, but I think that is still a long time coming.

Other than it being my birthday, it’s a fairly normal day. My mother had plans to go to Walmart today for a couple of things. This, of course, made it when I had to put off calling the Tecumseh Housing Authority as I planned. Not a big deal other than making it take longer to get info about transferring from the Wetumka Housing Authority to the Tecumseh Housing Authority. There was one thing I noticed, which is how quiet it is here in Wetumka, Oklahoma. Anyway, my mother and I went to the Holdenville Walmart, got a couple of things, and made our way back home.

After being home for some time, my mother had noted a post on Facebook about water rates going up. Now, mind you, my mother and I don’t pay for water at the unit, but from what I see of the new rate, that might change. Why? Well, the proposed rate increase will be 50%. That means the municipality of Wetumka wants to charge people 50% more for water that is known to cause cancer. Why? Well, I guess that the municipality of Wetumka is so broke that they would much rather charge the people even more for questionable water that could kill the very people drinking it than anything else. I doubt they even looked into anyother means of securing funds. This just proves my point when it comes to the municipality of Wetumka and the mayor who’s supposed to represent the people of Wetumka. I give it another 5 to 10 years before the municipality of Wetumka ceases to exist due to the actions they have taken against the people of Wetumka.

In the end, it is what it is, and all we can do is ride it out and see what happens.

You know, I learned about a couple of months after the current executive director (ED) got hired that he hired his son for maintenance. Now, to me, it makes no difference if a person is related by blood or not; it is the fact that they are related that can cause some problems when working together. To me, it is a form of nepotism and a form of conflict of interest. The United States Department of Housing and Urban Development (HUD), on the other hand, has no problems with either, as they most likely support both in some form. That tells me that such problems exist in HUD itself on some level. That would also explain why they choose to just forward complaints to the public housing authorities (PHA) that tenants are having issues with instead of looking into them themselves. This, in turn, makes HUD a rather useless government agency that should not exist since it does nothing for the people it’s supposed to help. So I wonder why such government agencies exist? I mean, after all, HUD for the most part doesn’t even know a fourth of its own policies and procedures.

This makes me wonder what President Trump would do about this? I mean, I doubt he would do anything at all since HUD and a PHA are not personally targeting him like they are my mother and me. I think it would be rather interesting if President Trump did do something, though. I mean, it could be funny since HUD and a PHA are attacking a soon-to-be 66-year-old who can’t crawl out of a window if a fire happens, and a soon-to-be 45-year-old who will not abandon his mother if a fire happens. Hell, HUD has no problem with tenants attacking other tenants, which is one of several things I have to worry about when it comes to living in the current PHA I’m living in right now. Why? Well, that's easy, the current neighbor in the connected unit (Yes, I call them like HUD does because I used to work in the PHA I live in), who thought it would be a good idea to bring around a little trouble like all the neighbors before them. I stopped counting at five, but it feels like we had maybe around ten or so neighbors through the course of us being here, and they all brought in something that caused problems in some form. That makes me wonder if President Trump would look into that, or better yet, if Oklahoma Governor Stitt, since it affects how people would see the state as a whole. Again, I doubt it since such an issue is above them right now.

Hell, I doubt that even the mayor of Wetumka, Oklahoma, will even look into this issue. Even if she did, she would most likely be lied to by the ED because the ED is attempting to keep it all under the rug in some form. After all, they are both Indians, and they seem to look down on anyone who is not an Indian in Wetumka, Oklahoma, at least that my experience in my 17 years of living here. It’s a lot like if you are not in anyone's circle here in Wetumka, Oklahoma, then you do not exist to anyone here again; that's my experience in my 17 years of living here. That would explain why people are leaving Wetumka, Oklahoma. Then again, it could be the high Utilities if it’s not the questionable government or the discrimination driving people away. That would also explain why most, if not all, businesses that attempt to start in Wetumka, Oklahoma, die within six to eight months of opening. The funny part is that they are attempting to get businesses here in Wetumka, Oklahoma, but the city fails to understand that a business can’t be where there are no customers. Wetumka, Oklahoma, fails to understand that if they want people and businesses here, they need to address all the questionable stuff going on here first, before even thinking about getting people and businesses to come here. Now I know that all the questionable issues can never be completely addressed, but if they were addressed to the point of being minimal, then it might make people and businesses look differently at Wetumka, Oklahoma, but right now, it is at the bottom of everyone's list.

At the end of the day, it is what it is, and soon Wetumka, Oklahoma, will cease to exist if the problems here don’t get addressed.

You know, today we were to be inspected, but that changed when my mother called the office yesterday to schedule for today. When my mother did that, the executive director (ED) told her not to worry because he had things todo today and asked if Friday would be good for the inspection. What I find interesting is that when we were told of the inspection, the first go around, it was less than 24 hours. In fact, it was that morning, as far as I remember. That day, we were asked to call about a time for it to happen again, as far as I remember. Later that day, my mother and I were told that something had come up, and the ED forgot about the inspection. It was the next day when the inspection happened. During the so-called inspection, all the ED did was take a couple of pictures of my room, a couple of pictures, and a couple of pictures of my servers. My mother later told me that the pictures he took of my room were of the windows. If that’s true, then that means he is going to claim that they are blocked by some means and fail to understand that the windows are still accessible as a fire exit.

I know that because there was one inspector who did a United States Department of Housing and Urban Development (HUD) inspection and asked my mother move things away from one of her windows. My mother told the inspector that she could, but due to her back, it would do little to help her out in such an emergency. See, my mother had back surgery where she has nuts, bolts, and rods in her back. That means with all that in my mother's back, she is lucky to get out of bed on her own without needing any help. Hell, she can’t even stay standing for very long without needing help. So going out a window is not really an option for my mother. The only option my mother has is going out the front or back door, even in an emergency. So I think HUD needs to rethink what a “Fire Exit” is, since they are treating all the tenants the same. I, for one, will not abandon my mother because HUD will not understand what a Full-Time Primary Caregiver does or means.

Now, with that being said, let’s go back to the inspection that was originally scheduled for today but got moved to Friday instead. As I said, my mother called the office yesterday because that’s when we finally got the notice about this inspection. My mother explained to the ED that she just started feeling better after dealing with some sort of bug she had and asked if it could be as late as possible. That was when the unexpected happened. The ED said not to worry about it because he had things to do that day and asked if 3 PM on Friday was a good day and time for the inspection. Mind you, I say this was unexpected because when my mother tried to move the first inspection, the ED told her that he didn’t care about what it looked like in the unit and that it had to be done on the day he scheduled it, regardless. Why the change of heart for this next inspection? Is he still being threatened with being fired? Did he see that maybe there is more going on in this unit than he understands? To be honest, I have no clue. Hell, it could be that I’m starting to host a platform that he can’t control on some level, which means whatever he does, I can post about it, and he can do nothing about it.

As for HUD, it still does what it does best, which is not a damn thing that the tenant can see. Hell, as I said, it treats all tenants the same. The problem with that is not all tenants are the same. In fact, every tenant is different with different problems. Hell, when I was working for the office, I started hearing about tenants dying in the units for one reason or another. It got to the point where I hoped that I would not find a tenant dead in a unit. That’s when I started to see that not all tenants are the same. That’s when I started to see that there were tenants who had it better than me, while there were other tenants who had it worse than me. Now, to HUD, they don’t care because they don’t see the tenants in any way, shape, or form. The only thing HUD cares about is the money that they can get from the tenants, and they will do so by any means necessary. I would challenge HUD to send someone from D.C., but I doubt whoever they send would see any problem since, as I said, HUD just doesn’t care about the tenants.

In the end, it is what it is, and all I can do is make the most of what I have.

You know, I have lived in Wetumka Housing Authority for going on 17 years now, I think. I say I think because I stopped counting after 15 years. In fact, I’m still in the same unit in the Wetumka Housing Authority right now. That might change, though, because the executive director (ED) is mad that I reported him to the United States Department of Housing and Urban Development (HUD). After all, it took him three months to address a kitchen leak that was under the kitchen sink cabinet. Now he is threatening eviction so that he will not have to deal with my mother or me anymore. It is so bad that my mother is worried that he might actually do it. I say let him, since he has been breaking Oklahoma law regarding tenants' rights.

He told both my mother and me that he would give us five weeks, and he would do another inspection. Personally, I think he saw some of the things I have been posting since the ED is friends with me on Facebook. One of the things I posted was the Oklahoma law regarding entry of a tenant's home. That included the right the tenant has to get a notice 24 hours before the landlord can even show up at the unit. Well, while I was in the shower, the Wetumka Housing Authority finally gave out a notice about an inspection for tomorrow. This would suggest that the ED has seen my posts, but to wait until the day before the inspection to give a notice is unacceptable in my humble opinion. So, will we be allowed to stay, or will we be evicted because an ED was threatened to be fired by HUD? Only time will tell.

I guess in the end, all the reports to HUD disappeared, as this would have happened sooner. Then again, HUD supports this kind of Behavior from all the public housing authorities (PHA) that get funding from HUD. That means that HUD will always encourage breaking the law or getting rid of tenants they don’t want anymore by any means necessary. So I wonder why they would wait until now to try to force an eviction? Is HUD really that dense and has no clue what goes on in the PHA’s it funds, or is it that they just simply don’t care? After all, HUD doesn’t really seem to want to do any kind of investigation that deals with tenants' complaints. It seems that all HUD wants to do is nothing at all unless people start showing others how they work on some level. Better yet, all HUD does is forward all complaints to the PHA when the tenant is asking HUD for help with the issue.

What HUD does not understand is that people will most likely not want to be in any PHA, since all HUD will do is side with the PHA without even looking into the issues tenants are having with said PHA. HUD also fails to understand that doing nothing for the tenants undermines the view that all tenants have when it comes to HUD and their mission to help people get a home. Maybe that’s why HUD does nothing, but I don’t think so. It has to be something else. Why else would HUD encourage PHAs to break laws or get rid of tenants? After all, it seems that HUD has no problems with tenants of PHAs littering the PHAs with non-functioning vehicles. It also seems that HUD has no problem with PHAs creating lawn damage to the tenants' lawn and then charging the tenants to address such damage. I wonder what else HUD has no problem ignoring when it comes to tenants that are having issues with the PHA that they are living in? Only time will tell, I guess. In the end, it is what it is, and there is no point in worrying about it.

Well, today is the first of the new year. Some say when a new year starts, it's okay to let go of the old. There is only one problem with that, though. When you let go of the old, the very thing that is keeping you in the now, go with it. Then again, there are others who say that’s not all that bad because you can recreate your newness in the now in some way. It just depends on how one sees themselves to know for sure what is best for themselves. To me, however, this is just like any other day. It is not all that special. I have more important things to think about, like being a caregiver to my mother or trying to help my brother in some way.

Hell, even right now, I have an Operation called Operation Homestead. No one knows about it, or what it is for, so I will not talk about it here. What I will say is that it’s one of three Operations that I hope will make this family more of a family, but I’m not sure. The word family has not felt like a word I can say with confidence for years now. Well, not since the old man died anyway. Being the oldest of the kids while attempting to be the old man of the family only adds to everything else I'm doing. I guess only time will tell if I can pull it off or not.

Right now, I do worry about my brother, but I don’t tell him that. There are times I wonder if he has a place to stay. There are times I wonder if he lost his job because of me or our mother. There are times I wonder if he’s holding things back because he doesn’t want me or our mother to worry about him. I do wish he had better timing when he calls, but he hasn’t called since the 26th of last month. I don’t know when it would be a good time to call him, either, so I have to watch his Facebook page and see when he makes a post. He keeps telling me that I’m a good brother, but there are times I don’t feel like I’m a good brother.

I mean, after all, I have altogether three brothers (two of whom are half-brothers) and one half-sister. I worry about them all. My half-sister wants nothing to do with me due to what my stepmother and her sister said, did, or both. My half-brothers, I’m told, want nothing to do with me due to what my stepmother has told them. I have also been told that half-brothers do want something to do with me, or at the very least, my brother. It’s hard to tell who to believe anymore when it comes to my half-sister or half-brothers. I used to be able to see my half-brothers through my stepmother's Facebook page, but she has since deleted it for one reason or another. My guess is my stepmother finally realized what she was posting could be used against her, but it was too late, as some of the posts she made had been screenshot. Speaking of which, I need to see if my mother wants to go to that court or not, and if so, I need to set up a calendar and an automation in Home Assistant.

In the end, it is what it is, and there is nothing I can do about it.

Well, I finally got my blog up and running, and figured, why not make my first post now? I have not told anyone that I have it up and running then again it not like anyone will care if it is or not. The one person that might care would most likely be my brother, but he has his own problems to face right now, so there is no need to worry him any more than he already is. In fact, I have most of what I need right now up and running, and will continue to work on what I need or want at a later time down the road. Hell, I was even thinking of letting someone access my Home Assistant, but I'm not sure that is wise right now, considering what she is doing right now.

Hell, I don’t think she even knows the damage she is doing to herself right now. She thinks it’s okay to say one thing and do another. In fact, how she is acting now reminds me of what my stepmother is doing, but at a much more questionable level. As a result of her actions, my mother and I have to wake up at 5 AM so my mother can take her meds by 6 AM to get to someone's house by 8 AM just because that someone wants to be an ass. It is what it is, but in the end, it will only hurt that someone because she thinks driving my brother apart from me and my mother is going to happen when that is not even an option. I guess only time will tell if she will see what her actions have done so far, and maybe think before she keeps going on the course she's on.