You know, I would like to think my brother learns from his mistakes, but that does not seem to be the case. Call it wishful thinking or whatever you like, but it seems he always puts himself in a situation where he gets hurt somehow. What's worse is that I can’t really protect him all the time because I can only be in one place at a time. That means I have to hope that when he gets in a bad situation, he can get himself out until I can do something. The bad thing about that is that I’m in a bad situation myself, so I can’t really help him at all right now. All I can do right now is plan and hope the plan works, and if not, change it on the fly to keep the goal in mind and on track. That means that not only do I worry about how shit is going near me. I also worry about my brother and the other family members, whom I can’t see all the time, if at all.
Yes, that means not only do I worry about my mother, I also worry about my brother, my half-sister, and both of my half-brothers. I’m pretty sure that my half-sister most likely wants nothing to do with my brother or me, based on what she might have been told. I can’t really blame her, I mean, if I were told some rather questionable things, I might believe them until I find out the truth. As for my half-brothers, I’m pretty sure they are being told how evil their older brothers are on some level. Again, I can’t blame them for believing that. As for my brother, I can only hope that he will one day slow down when it comes to his woman. He doesn’t understand that he needs to really know someone before calling them a friend or more.
For those who want to know my situation well, that's easy: I’m a Full-Time Primary Family Caregiver to my mother. That means I keep track of a lot of shit. Being an IT Guy, I use servers and services to help with that. Right now, I have Home Assistant for reminders and automations. I have Grocy for Grocery inventory when I get a chance to use it. I have Joplin for note-taking. I have Firefly III for bookkeeping and budgeting. Last but not least, I have Tandoor to build out a cookbook. So all I need is to be recognized as a Full-Time Primary Family Caregiver by the three to five letter government agencies, so I can, at the very least, get some training on being a better Caregiver.
In the end, all I can do is hope it all works out.