You know that are times when I will wonder how the hell I'm still alive. I mean it, I have no clue how the hell I'm making it right now. After all, when I started to be my mother's Caregiver I thought I would get some help either with a little money or maybe at least a team of nurses. In Oklahoma however, if you want help you need to be a woman and in this day in age, you need to not be white. It sounds shitty but it's true. Even to get Meals on Wheels you have to sign up for something that will cause the Oklahoma Department of Human Services (OKDHS) to send a nurse to tally up points to see if you score high enough for Meals on Wheels. Now I wonder how many other people are having the same problems when it comes to the OKDHS. After all, I was thinking that it would be good to have just in case we ran low on funds it would give her something to eat for that day a least.
Now when it comes to the Social Security Administration (SSA) at least when it comes to Oklahoma it's the same shit. They tell you that you didn't score enough points for you to get help from them. How my mother had to get the SSA to recognize disability was to go through an advocacy group in Utah. Yes, you read that right my mother had to go through an out-of-state group just to get Supplemental Security Income (SSI). That means the federal and state governments view people as game pieces and if you don't score high enough for them then you are nothing to them on any level. My mother deserves more for all the work she put in. The Government on the other hand tells her that she isn't worth shit and to shut up. That's why there are kids like me who try to be Caregivers to their parents. That's why there are kids like me who try to keep their parents out of nursing homes because some of us know what truly happens in nursing homes.
Now Oklahoma thinks a tax break will help Caregivers but it has a catch like everything else when relating to Oklahoma. One you need to be certified in Caregiving which can understand why that needs to be in the law. After all, I had looked into certifications when it comes to Caregivers but the problem I have is not having the funds for the prerequisites. Now the other problem is that since Covid-19 hit the world I lost the only work I had. Going from getting work to no work kinda kills a lot of things when it comes to being a Caregiver. I hoped that by doing a GiveSendGo campaign I could get a new truck and use it to do Walmart Spark or maybe DoorDash but no luck on that front. I guess all I can do is just do all I can and hope it's good enough.