Well, tonight, I found out that I'm now single. I found out about it through a Facebook post. However, I, in a way, understand why. All she saw was us arguing most of the time. She never saw how upset it made me when we did argue, how upset it made me she was in a nursing home, or the ideas of what I had planned for us. Ultimately, all I can do is hope at the very least we can still be friends.
I'm not even disappointed with her ending it. I'm disappointed in myself though. I wondered every day how I could get out of this hole of being poor. Funny enough I found a way but it was not soon enough. It will still take time but if all works out I will at least be able to pay some of my bills without any problems. I even wondered what would it be like to own a home and maybe have a or two calling me father and her mother. Maybe we could get back together when the time is right.
Well, it is what it is and life goes on at least what I keep getting told. While I don't have any kids of my own I can still try to help raise both of my little brothers when I'm around them. After all, I'm the old man now.