Well, this month I thought it would be like it has been every year. Why is that you ask? Well, that's because my birthday is this month. It was the 13th of this month to be exact. You would think I love my birthday and there was a time when I did. That time had passed when I ended up burying two people on my birthday. It doesn't matter that it was ten years apart. What makes it shitty this year was losing my father this month even though I wasn't all that close to him it still sucks to some degree.
However, what made this month suck less was getting a video from my other mother. Normally getting a video from family doesn't affect me all that much. This one was different. It was a video of my brother singing “Happy Birthday” to me. I don't know if it was because he was singing to me or if he was doing it from a hospital room where my newest brother is dealing with Respiratory syncytial virus (RSV). Either way, it hit me hard for some reason. It was nice though I just wish I could download it and put it in the Time Capsule that started when other mother wanted things for a Time Capsule. Maybe one day he'll see how nice it was but I think for now he needs to just be a kid because if not he might end up just like me. That is something none of us want.
Anyway, it's time to try to stay warm especially when it comes to this lovely Oklahoma Weather.